Its coming 3.30pm

So am doing my last recaps. Yeah. I need to bathe soon.

I am stupid i could say.
I checked. & rechecked the profile.

How much it aches when i see it.

Hell. How much it really ached when I even thought of it.

Lately, my reason to sleep was just to forget.
Its fruitless as I know. The next day I will still remember.
Clearly.

N it'll start to reminisce.
u know. When how I am there to watch practices.
Or even performances.

& suddenly it'll flashed through the laughter.
Although I remember a lot of tears..

& then It flashed thru the bedrooms.
The friends.
The family. The birthdays.

Then slowly to mishaps.
Then watching u sleep.

& suddenly to reflect again.
Another person's on your bed.
Another person's in ur head.
Another person's name on ur lips.
And another person That u kiss.

That dun matter.
Y ? Is it that I'm so easy to be used?
So easy to be forgotten?
Dun my face flash in front of u when u fucked someone else?
Dun you wish it was my scent on hers when u fuck someone else?

Why 3 years with me, meant nothing to u?

Why do u dare say u love me when ur with someone else?
Why do u lie to me when u know am bound to find out?
Why are u feeling jealous when you're e one fucking another girl?

How come its hard fer me to let go this hatred?
Because people tell me to act as if nothin happen.
How e fuck am i to act nothin happened when it is a big thing to me.
U cant keep shuttin me away.
Because U can only understand. But u dun feel me.
U try to be logical. Rational. But u just cant feel e burden of letting some hatred out.

Exact feelings are:

Inside me is in a turmoil. My heart is racing really fast & that its bubbling really badly that I could burst anytime. Revenge is on e verge of my fingertips and seriously, his perfidy destroyed my soul!! It was cruel. Stupid. Senseless & inhuman of wad he treated me as! Of what any guy wud treat a girl as!

I wud say, he can fuck off. People tell me what makes me think that he'll care with whatever am saying here!

I say, i dun need him to care. I just need him to realise. N when he realise. I hope his fucked up attitude is too high in the air that he'll be crashing down so hard. He seriously messed with the wrong girl. & i am going to be a total bitch. Twice!!!

This cominn 2008. Resolution: FORGET THAT BLARDY ASSHOLE.
To seriously get a new job that'll take 3/4 of my time.
Get enough money.
Hopefully go into Shatec.
If not just save up fer my Degree.

Fuck you.

iQi

Mondays.

Current Doing: Resting the stomach
Wishing for: Something to do

I had a scary dream. & i now forgot what its about. OH wait. Now I remember. It's about vomiting. Fuckingly disgusting.

So well. Monday was pretty fun. I couldn't make it for my dance practice as I was aching so fucking badly all over. Now it's slightly better. Still! I have to like save up for Sunday! & yes. I am going for dance practfrom Wed till Sat.

So on Mon I went out with Aaron to cut our hair. Haha. It was orite. Aaron looked really young. & yeah to add in cute. We quickly went to our next destination & that's Bugis. Yeah. I was trying to find whatever dresses that i could find. I COULDN'T. & from then on, i realised i will not really go Bugis to buy dresses. Their quality sucks sia. So in the end I just bought this one shades that made me look really rockstar.

After that me n aaron were pretty much hungry. Decided to go Manhattan Fish Market at PS. Yum2 . Both of us ordered the Norwegian King Salmon meal. It waas nice. But didn't really give me that heaven feeling. It was just rili something I wud eat again & again. So after that we quickly took e train & headed for Orchard. To go Far East. Then was walking around when Aaron called me and showed some couple ring. Its really sweet looking. I loove it! Aftr that, we went to search fer my dress. Round & Round we went. & i finally settled my eyes on this greenish shade tube dress. Its really pretty!

Now that am satisfied, we went to British Take Away & bought Fried Mars Bars. Super yum yum. YUMMY LAA!! It so made me melt!!!!!! After that went back to the ring shop to claim our rings and tadah. My ring has his name & his ring has my name. Cutee..

We went back home. Under my block. & started cam whoring. & dancing. Hahaha. Imagine that. Dancing under me block. AFter that we went home as dear isnt feeling all well and stuff. So yeah.

That's all fer now :)


iQi

Cramps Day La.

Current Doing: Lazing around & resting
Wishing for: more money.

So past 1 week was my dance practice and stuff for Christmas party at Ulu2 this coming Sunday. Been pretty tiring and i think i stressed my muscles a bit too much. That led to me walking like a pregnant woman. Haha. Pity Aaron & Shir.

So morning I attended my dance practice.
Afternoon met up with dear Aaron to Causeway point & do some light shopping,bought him a ring, and grab a present for Hui Hui. haha. I gave a very peculiar present for a 19 year old. Hahahs.
& then after that met up with darling Shir to grab her blades back from ECP. Hell yeah its far.
The whole day we end up taking cabs.

From Marsiling to ECP. We walked from ECP to parkway parade to eat Sashimi at Sakae Sushi.
Funny thing was I didn't wanna try raw food. I saw famous amos and wanted to like buy some cookies n make myself full so i dun need to eat sashimi. Unfortunately, aaron & shir managed to pull me back after like me making weird U-turns to escape them.. & me pinching Shir's boobs in the middle of parkway parade. HAHAHHAHAHHA.Shir taught me how to eat the sashimi. She said my expression was priceless. It isnt that bad. Just that. Too much of it makes me go ..mmmmurgghhmm.. But i like e torched salmon!! YUM YUM YUM!!!

After Parkway Parade, we waited for a fucken cab fer more than 1 hour just to go to Sembawang park. We should have grabbed e bus n took a cab from woodlands. E fare wud be little. Damn.i hate cabs. For long distance i mean. So we managed to arrive there ard 12 or so. & well the bbq pit was ok. Many friends came. Its just plain fun laaa... Me & Qiu Yan ended up dancing n stuff. I ended up grinding on Shirin. Hahahaha. So danced and drink and around 2 plus went home. Called a taxi. I was a bit laggy. 0.2 secs laggy. hahaha.

Then we went home.. Aaron accompanied me home. N tadah. HOME. Pheww..
Btw since the xmas thingy. Am changing my song to some Xmas song :D NYEHAHAH.

P.s Its officially over ..

iQi

Feeling Kinky

Current Doing: Talkin to Aaron & gettin humped on MSN. (LOL)
Wishing for: His smell.

Coz his smell gives me warmth.

Today was suppose to go to Admiralty for my dance prac for the Ulu2 Christmas Party.
In the end I woke up like late plus I dun have key to go out.
So yeah.

I end up goint here at 3pm

Qiu Yan & Naz was the one who coached me.

& frankly. I went to work after that.

& frankly again.

I AM FUCKING tired.

I miss Aaron oredi. How ?


Oh btw. I like to note things that are just the surface. Lots of things sort of happened at work today. Its just that. To me its not that necessary to talk about it.
Or else its gonna make him angry.

Ex msged me.
Tellin me to go his house on the 14th of Dec.
Duuh. For a fuck most prolly.
I DUN WAN.
I HATE HIM. COZ HE ONLY FIND ME FOR IT.


Urghhh!!
Aaron!
U humping PAIN leh!!

WAHAHAHA.

Xmas is coming~~~~~

Lalallaalalal~

I swear. I dunno wad else to write down.
Aside my pay is here?

Baby! I WANT goood fooood~~!

iQi

Merry Christmas

Current doing: Talking to Aaron on the phone
Wishing for: food

So my first entry on a December.
So i broke off with him.
Wait.
I broke off with him months ago.
This time. I shall stop being there for him.

Yay!
Christmas fever is on me.
I volunteered dancing.
Volunteered xmas presents.
WANT to give aaron xmas prezzies.

I love my life right now.
I love that aaron makes me laugh.
I love that HE is just another asshole.

LALALALA~

Am hungry.
Am gonna cook up some stuff later.
Oh.

I met Aaron just now.
It was fuuun.
Because we were hanging on monkey bars.
N the stars were all visible.
N a lot more today.
N i dun call it romantic.
I just find it peaceful.
ADDS in Aaron.
It made my day.

I started smoking.
Virginia slim.
Thanks to Hui2.
She called it a prostitute cigg.
I am so not gonna smoke fer e next month.
If i can help it.
But i promised.

I bite the person again.
This time it was too visible.
His frens asked him who did it.
Thank God i wasnt there.

Am not gonna see Aaron e next 2 weeks perhaps.
Thats NOT depressing.
Just.
erm..

Gonna miss him.


Any updates?
Nothing. Lalalalalalalala~

OH OH.
Black & white.
Is gonna be the new hair colour.
me & AARON.
MUAHAHHAHAH~!!


iQi