Wednesday, September 23, 2009


I know I don't frequent blog shift but here's the new URL:-

RELINK when possible please!!!

Thanks soo sooo much! Just post comments here if you DID relink la hor.


Friday, September 18, 2009


Something's odd about me lately.
I don't feel like myself.
I am not as optimistic about ANYTHING anymore.
I just feel.. Alone..

It's about everything in the world that I feel is against me.
I don't know WHAT.

I have a confession to make.
It's been a year plus.

& i still not over it.
& the emotion & flashback of it is really hard on me now.

If I am not strong willed right now, I would have gone insane.
RonRon can't relate to me with what happened - even though he is involved.

I should have went for counseling but to me, I don't think my depression is THAT bad.
I still can function like as per normal.

The feeling came when I started school.(July)
Cause around the same time last year, I was in MDIS.

RonRon is having his own problems & as down as I am now, I had to think twice of going into that 'self-destruct' mode.

All my life, I had lived.. Thinkin of others' feelings be it whatever wrongdoings i had intentional or not.

The memory still so fresh.
Those developing fingers & toes...
The days whereby, I was on my own emotionally to deal with the loss.

I can't say anything anymore.. I am at loss for words..

*i miss ronron so much..*

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Hooray for Proper windows(??eh?)

Mood: Quite sleepy.

So please don't mind my limited vocab.

I realised that, those who I treat them as friends, aren't even near it. Wait.

Not even near acquaintance.
Maybe its my fault, or theirs. Or both.

Sometimes I feel I shouldn't even KNOW the person exist. But to think of it again, I mature up because of these people.
But holy crap.

They are still a pain in the ASS even after not being close to them.

I don't know how much I can stand this 'problems after problems' life.
Not that I don't know life IS a problem.
But you know..

For just a while.. I want to feel.. Free..
Which never happens for me anyway.

Am missing RonRon so much.. He's now getting activated to go India already.
I.. feel like tearing.. Even though its just 3 weeks..
I literally went crazy when he had his 1 week outfield (adds in no PHONE CALLS AT ALL).
So it's gonna be expensive to even communicate when he's in India.
It's in Oct btw. Which isn't.. far.

It's depressing depressing depressing.

"If you don't have enemies, you're a person with NO character."


Monday, September 7, 2009

Stupid Fucks

Shoutout for Thursday:
"Worse day of my life. Had presentation on that day. Called cab. cab was 15 mins late cause he got lost. While sitting in the cab my mense flowed forward and stained my cream dress(for presentation). When presentation start, my mates compiled my old DRAFT ppt slides and I got lost in my own slides.
Bloody hell."

Shoutout today:
"I am slightly pissed that work is cutting hours and I get to work only once a week, and thats considered lucky enough. I have to keep turning down plans that I already said YES to just because of work. Am sorry girls :(.
Now, Sat is another one.. Bleargh :(."


Wednesday, September 2, 2009

SOmething IS wrong

Yes, Something is wrong with my browser or something.

"I have so many plans this month I don't even know if my pay is sufficient for this month's activity :(. Hope RonRon will chip in xD. Oh. I don't like talkin about my past life. No.NO."