& so another looong night.

I always find DAY passes by faster.
But night passes by real slow for me..

I only feel this way when RonRon is away..
To people out there.

Yes. I am allowed to hang out in his room with e door closed yada yada till late night.
But I am not allowed to stay over night due to my parents.
I am not allowed to even stay with him for as long as I want to.
Even though when he is away in camp.
I am not allowed to stay with him like how so many other certain chinese girls are allowed to.
& yeap. It's all because of my parents.
I love my parents. But I always had mind set clash with them since Sec 2.
That's why I want to marry him.
I love him a lot & I really wanna be with him forever ever ever no matter  good & bad endings.
I don't wanna get out of my house but I really cant take it when everyting doesnt seem right.
I don't FEEL right being in this house.
We  talked about it. But..
We can't get married till  June/July 2011.
If we were to marry now, it'll be  the best! He won't need to stay in camp.
Everyday come back..*sigh*..
Ina..Keep dreaming..


So that's why at times, this distance/loneliness drives me real crazy.
Oh wait. Maybe because I am too free.
My pals are busy.
The people that saved me are adeQ & Dwi.


Frankly, I don't feel like I have.. BFF. Especially the forever part. 
I mean not that they are bad. They are real great!
But.. at times I do feel left out.
3/4 of them are coming like more than a decade kinda friendship.
Mine's like 3 or 4 years.
It's a totally different..vibe.
I love them. *shrugs*

Am such an attention seeker. Sheesh.
p.s, the vids are up.


iNa