Hahaha.

After quite some time, i'm feeling slightly hardworking today to poast whatever overdue pictures.

Note: Pictures are not in order & the events are RonRon's POP, Malacca trip, Sentosa (only 1 pic as it rain 15 mins we were there) & cousin's shaving baby hair ceremony.

Hazeeq. He was tryna smile actually.

On the way. Yes. Short hair.

Another short hair.

I can only have this pose as the other side you wont be able to see my face.

Not even a week, I miss my long hair.

Hershey under my blankie.

@ Kenny Roger's Malacca

Holiday Inn (my room view)

Sentosa thingy.

Tired after late dinner at Ulu.

The food me & RonRon ate. Missing was BBQ wings

I think that's it for now.

Oh GOOD NEWS. I PASSED MY ECONOMICS IN LEISURE & TOURISM EXAM!!

WOOHOOO!!! I hate that subject!

P.s Am searching non stop for that Twilight book Eclipse. Argh. 

iNa

Snip SNIP!

They cut my hair all wrongly. What I wanted was way opposite of what they did to my hair. I still wanted my long hair. But now.. It's bob looking. Fuck.

Once I camwhore enough, I shall post.

Till then, I miss my baby RonRon..

Au revoir.

iNa

Truth & yet, Lies.

I don't understand. I, made her suffer? 

I don't understand, if they're all not in my dictionary anymore.. then what made me stay? What made me listen to them? What made me.. even try to please them? 

Words being spoken behind my backs without being straight forward confuse me. They always do. I like to hear peoples' opinion or feelings. Like will they feel they lost me if I leave? Or will they feel like they miss me temporary & boom, ok, am gone. Good riddance. 

The clash of mindsets is something I can put up with but not permanent. 

I'm selfish? Isn't everybody? Am selfish to a big extent? Like what? I have mood swings too. But i DO know I did what I think am able to. I hate to point out that she's selfish too. Like i said, who isn't? Just because it happened, & I blamed mom, she doesn't even fucking know how it felt! She doesn't even fucking know how it was. My mistake. I knew. I realised, & I guess there isn't any other problems aside the usual small squabbles isn't it?

Sometimes. She's a two face. I abhore two faces, & am concerned. Especially that we're living under one roof. I have no fucking bad intentions. I just want to live MY way of life. I just don't get it, is it so morally wrong I wanna get married & live somewhere else soon? What does she think of me as? A runaway? Just because am going away? It doesn't mean am deserting my family. She - wait. NO ONE knows how much I value my family, especially my mom. I am not good at showing or expressing but that explains, why I never, in my life, ever once ran away.

I don't know. I am confused, hurt, betrayed & God knows whatever emotions that come & go right now. 

I still can't believe she finds me more of a tormentor than a...

If there's a reason why I should get out of the house soon, she would be the reason. I don't believe in giving when one don't even appreciate it. Rather give nothing, when not sincere.

P.s I can't believe she said I could just forget my families like that. How could she so easily said it.

iNa

Boo! & loads of rants.

My apologies to everyone.

MIA for quite long.

Went to Malacca from Wed till Fri & came back spending last 2 days with RonRon before he goes off to his new camp later.

& guess what? Am wearing his briefs .. I'll tell u about that later.

What kind of things u want me to type about my trip? The only interesting thing i can think of is the hotel. I think it's a 4 star hotel called Holiday Inn. Am not sure how many of you went there before but I liked it. Although they charge me internet RM24 (~S$11) for 24 hours, other than that, I LOVE the shower. & also my room view. It's the view of the sea or Straits of Malacca. It was worth the RM660(~S$300++?).

Well we shopped alot & dine alot. Then that's it.

Xmas is coming, & I don't really celebrate xmas but I love the sales that's been around. HAHA. I bought my girls & RonRon Xmas Prezzies & RonRon bought me my Xmas Prezzie that made me SOOO HAPPY!

& I realised on how much things that happened to me, mature my thinking , changed my views, & able to see a lot of things in different light. NOTE: I hate being optimistic TOO MUCH because, it just meant denial. I hate being grateful TOO MUCH because it also meant denial. 

& another thing is, girls, don't be fucking stupid. If you girls have that break up patch rship, just move on already. Stop deluding urself he'll change when YOU girls are the ones that kept running back. YOU think the guy will change? OMFG. I cant believe you girls are THAT naive. You kept saying you stay because of love, when on his side, he kept pouring u with words. Words. & more words. I wonder why you girls are so easily convinced just by words & no actions. & dun start mixing sex in. It's like, "*moans* I love you darlin*moans*" & more i love U's & moans in the midst of love making. Thats loads of BS.

Don't ever believe a guy when he said he won't find another after you. That's another pile of Bulls. Don't believe anything an EX said. For it's another 10,000 piles of shithead that comes out of his mouth because he wants ur tits & see you writhing under him. Or if you have not much of tits, u surely have a hole.

Don't mind my language. & if any of you feel like am wrong, feel free to chat, & discriminate because its true, bring more people in & make me popular ok? Ass.

Oh about me wearing his briefs. Was out earlier & my mense came when we reached his house. I had no spare bottoms, had to use his -.-''

P.s I miss & truly love RonRon.
Thanks for the gifts baby. 

iNa

Happy Belated 1 Year Anni

It was on 12.12 approx 0012hours.
It is also me parents 21st Anni on that date.

To start off from what you missed, my cousins from Australia came & slept over for two days. I didn't really talk much because I don't really have any topic plus my right ear is almost deaf from God knows what is inside. Am going to the doc on Monday to get it check. 

Thursday we went to Sentosa. Me,Sis,Ilah & Farhana. By the time we reached there and the 3 of them swam for like 10 mins, the Lifeguard blew the whistle asking everyone out of the water as it was drizzling. & a few minutes later it was pouring. We resided under one of the shelters. I haven't even get myself wet. & 20 mins later, we decided to change & grab some food & then home.

But I didn't have the key for the new lock so we ended up goin Timezone(arcade). We topped up $30. & we played like mad.

After everything, we went home & I was really exhausted by then. I've been sleeping way before 3 or 4AM now. & waking up by 10 or 11AM. 

12.12 came.

RonRon & me met up at Causeway Point. We didn't know what to eat, as I was craving A LOT. So we ended up eating Chicken Rice & he ate some soup thingy. Then we went to buy movie tix for the show Twilight. Before the show starts, we gamed at Timezone. Again. & we went to Mini-bits. He bought me a set of ear rings and necklace! It is soooo beautiful. Thanks sweetie.. & then off we went for the movie.

Ratings: 3/5. I love Vampire shows. & this one is not as classic like all I ever heard of. It is a modern show & storyline wise is mostly about Romance/Love etc. It is an ok show. 

After movie we went Ulu Ulu restaurant to eat. It's at Night Safari. & we had, Crab Meat Fried rice, Vegetarian Naan Set, BBQ chicken wings which the chef gave sooo much & got a free Promo of the month which is Turkey Kebab i think. They are all very very tasty. 

After food, head back home to his place & played Rock Band 2 till I feel all sleepy. Went back home by 3 am. 

Pictures will be later after this post. As usual, lazy to upload first.

P.s I love him!

iNa