I need to calm down

Past few weeks have been overwhelming.  Work, sickness, school assignment,  pregnancy. I can only blame myself for the situation I'm in especially on my assignment and I am accepting that fact. However, it is still a blow to me should I not complete that particular module due to my sickness and pregnancy.

Whatever it is, I will learn from this and better myself and move on..

Years flew by and..

I know. People don't usually blog anymore unless they're reviewing something. Furthermore there's Twitter and Facebook and Insta for all the no words description. I believe I can just wish to blog again. From time to time. This blog holds a lot of memories for me. I'll update again. Bear with me.

XoXo

Budget Wedding done in 2011

I have been reading past few months or since 2014 about weddings being expensive and how it is not worth being in debt for that one day event.

& Believe me, it is NOT worth it to be in debt cause of that 1 day event. If you really have saved and that you have the money for a lavish wedding, please feel free. This post is for those who wish to loan left and right, up and down for a lavish wedding.

Let me tell you first how much my wedding was:
$10,500.
Yeah you saw that right. I did not include any costs of rings incurred because I don't find that part of the celebration. We have rings though, 1 is the proposal ring to me and second is our wedding ring.

My husband as you may know by now, is a Chinese (yes converted) and I'm a Malay so we decided that we could make a joint kinda wedding. Our wedding and solemnisation was done on the same day.

Here's the breakdown:

Venue: Kintamani Restaurant @Furama Riverfront Hotel
Time; 11AM till 3PM
Date: 12/12/2011 (Monday) We went ahead with this date because it's our rship anniversary.
Pax: 130-140

Cost $4900.

Hotel Stay 2 nights: $705

Simple Dais: $300

3-Tiered Cake: $600

Tiered Cupcakes: $480

Solemnisation Gown: $253 (Rented from a boutique in JB)

Photography: $650

Pre-wedding Shoot (indoor & Outdoor) + Evening Gown for wedding that's included in the package + Bridal makeup by Feline Bridal: $2400

Those are mainly the costs. Me & hubs believed that we only invite those people that has a lot of impact and involvement in our lives so to make our wedding day more meaningful. Yeah, our parents are comfortable with that idea. As you can see, we do not have a single decoration because, the restaurant is decorated enough. The restaurant is very Balinese/Indonesian style kind of ambiance and really, you do not need to add any decor aside from center pieces that's included in their wedding lunch package. You may want to view my full Solemnisation cum Wedding Pictures here.
Additionally here's some :)

It's sparkling juice.

Oh yes, my hantaran is $10,000. BUT, my mom wants it to be given to me, so the hantaran of $10,000 is to me, and not to her, so basically, no hantaran la in that sense. Me & my family don't believe in exchanging of gifts. I don't know what's the gift exchange tradition is for cause in my opinion, whatever gifts he may give me, I can buy it on my own. Just for that special day to get LV/Chanel/I don't know what other brands so? I can afford my own after getting married to him too. & vice versa for him. Bottom line, gifts are redundant that's all I want to say.

We did not go to Europe or anywhere extravagant for our honeymoon because I just started work, and I wanted to save my leaves for another honeymoon (but I got pregnant with Rayna 4 months after marriage) so we went to Koh Samui instead for 4 nights. I have yet to upload those Koh Samui pictures in my FB because I look so, horrendous in the pictures and hubs was the only nice looking one in the pictures.

Anyways, back to the wedding costs, the food there is great. I really have no regrets having a small and affordable wedding. Our marriage is still strong and getting our house soon.

I do admit though, the cost is very minimal due to the number of guests we invited. Around 13-14 tables. That includes his immediate family,relatives and good friends and my immediate family, relatives and good friends and some of my mom's colleagues. Normally for a malay wedding invitations are between 400 pax and above? So I am really glad I celebrated our joyous moments who gave a damn to me and not those random people.

Really, I do not care if you think it's selfish because your principles and mine maybe different.

Lastly, I'll show you some shots of my Pre-wed shoots by Feline Bridal. For more you may see my Pre-Wed shoot here.

All right, that's all for now. Hope you guys enjoy this post and till more updates!

Love,

iNa

Updated 3D proposals from my ID for 3 room BTO

I received my 3D proposals! I just found out that for BTO flats, the kitchen and bathroom tiles are provided by HDB even though if my house isn't a premium and the worse part, unable to hack them for 3- 5 years. So, me & hubs gotta make do with ugly tiles.

Anyways, here's the 3D proposals by Janice.

Living & dining room. The furniture will be colourful but I still yet to decide what family colour tone I would want. These proposals are to showcase mainly the flooring and wall colours and lighting etc. So my carpentry of the shoe cabinet (on the right) will be very useful.

Our kitchen. The kitchen is Aaron's domain (just cause he's working as a chef and just particular with the kitchen) thus most of the colours were chosen by him. Moreover, the kitchen items will also be chosen by him. Believe it or not, we have bought dinner plates/bowls/mugs etc by Bugatti (Italy) just because Cold Storage having those promos whereby you have to collect their stamps and redeem all the items at a much lower price. We are now eye-ing NTUC's WMF cutlery promo.

Our master bedroom, will not have any for the children's bedroom because I didn't request for anything so master bedroom what Aaron wanted was a desk for his computer. You really can't say not on these stuff to a gamer. Additionally, I wanted more storage for my clothes and bags. So there you are, more storage and also both of us wear specs. So we need a bedside table for the specs thus our cupboard/wardrobe are designed that way for the bedside table. We do not want a TV in the bedroom because, we don't really watch TV. We can just watch porn or other nice shows on his computer.

Our master bedroom toilet. Yeap it looks really plain because we can't freaking choose the tiles anyway due to the HDB thing. So this will do for now. There is suppose to be a light at the top of the mirror and I'm planning to buy additional items for the toilet.

All in all, this is just the surface of the house. I am pretty excited when we get the keys because all the details of the house, fixtures/functions that I have planned will come true! I'm going to save all the excitement and surprise for now :)

Till I receive anymore great updates about the house, thanks for dropping by!

Love,

iNa

Congratulations to the Royal Family of England!

I am a mother, so I am dedicating a post for the Royal Family of England!
Congratulations Duchess on your adorable beautiful baby Princess! I wonder what will be her name!

Duchess looks so beautiful hours after birth!
I definitely want to look like that once I give birth to the second.

Dear hubby, add on make up kit and hair dryer to my maternity bag please.

(Source: telegraph.co.uk)

Till then!

Love,

iNa

3-Room HDB BTO House Renovation Part 1. Meeting Up with the Interior Designer

So I am going to blog about which Interior Designer (ID) that me & hubs chose and the costs incurred and roughly what to expect. Give and take.

First & foremost, there's an update of policy by HDB regarding the cement screed for new homes. You may read it here: Pre-Packed Cement Screed will incur higher costs.

So what you can expect is an additional cost of up to $3000 if you're planning to renovate your apartment which, suck. $3000 is still money to most of us including me. I can buy additional furniture/appliances for the house with $3000!

So I eyed Rezt & Relax ID ever since I saw their TV Ad way back in 2014 so naturally, when I know it's time to get an ID, we then went to their showroom at Expo held in August/October 2014 to get a free consultation. There, we met Janice, our ID.

**EDITED**

Basically she went through with us what we have in mind and advised us what is possible and what is not and well, after hours of discussion (lucky Rayna napped for awhile) we decided to settle the kitchen. They had this package just for the Expo event whereby the kitchen reno is at $6888 inclusive of hob & hood and 3 types of surface. Their carpentry are all Lifetime Warranty and it's from Blum. We added a tall larder unit and wish to extend  the kitchen all the way to the service yard so yes we will hack the service yard door. So with addition carpentry works, it totals up to $9000+. So that's how much our kitchen costs.****

So we had another meet up with Janice in April. We decided we will engage Rezt & Relax and her to design our home. By this time, I changed my mind so much and got all fickle-minded on the theme and in the end, decided on Scandinavian theme. It's going to be mostly plain/neutral coloured walls but I (yes, furniture & outlook decisions are mine to play with as hubs wants me to be happy) choose the furniture to be colourful. 

I'll describe in details.

OK there's the legend. So with those carpentry works and hacking and all costs around $8330.  The next heavy cost is our HERF flooring which includes the living room and the bedrooms total up to $3195. 

Their Misc Works includes Nippon paint and painting the whole house unlimited colours of $1500, supply & lay haulage, general cleaning, protecting totals up to $2090. 

Professional Services includes everything you need advice and help from a profession ID just like how a professions Wedding planner would be, plan from A ro Z and doing site management costs $1500. The rest of the costs are all those nitty gritty stuffs and small builts like cupboard for the toilet, shower screen, tiling, doors for kitchen etc. & of course, at last the stupid Cement screed as mentioned above costing me $3000.

Total costs quoted is $26,800 + my prepaid kitchen of $9000+ = ~$36,000. Not inclusive of plumbing, electrical works, lightings, Air-con, window grilles & furniture yet. So, with that price and possible add-on (if any) and if I were to count in everything furniture etc, we would expect to spend on the house around $60,000. *whistles* So what I hope is to find good deals of the furniture to lower the cost. 

Initially, we plan for a storage platform for the bed in the master bedroom but the price is like $2000+ for that so we removed it and also a full length dark and clear mirror which cost around $2000+ as well and its removed temporarily till I can find a nice replacement (wallpaper/painting) if not, will add that in again. Another thing we removed was the false ceiling. I FREAKING LOVE FALSE CEILING!

(By: Rezt & Relax)

AWESOME LOOKING RIGHT?

But, it cost around $2000+ for our house just the living area alone and we asked for an alternative and was advised to try thread/tread lights  (I am not even sure if this is the correct term):

(By: Rezt & Relax)

See those spotlight looking thing on a bar above the sofa? Yeap those kind.

As you can see the effect is so different from false ceilings. We will see our 3D proposal and decide what to change and what to cancel out (if any).

So Scandinavian theme is like this roughly whereby it's simple and I think mostly practical for a small apartment:

There's lots more if u Google them. All pictures are found on Google.

I still yet to receive my 3D images so I am trying to be as patient because good things don't come very fast so I am putting faith in my ID.

Review of my ID Janice for Phase 1.

- She is really patient and professional. We wanted lots of things or more like, unable to decide on many things so she will give us her advice and recommendations and plan step by step.

- Honest. She is honest when something cannot be done, she will say so. 

- Very personal in a way whereby, in the months that me & hubs were deciding on the house reno issues, from Aug/Oct 2014 till April 2015 of our meet up, she kept in touch with me with sufficient space. She did not keep msging/calling me incessantly and was not pushy for sales/business in a way.

So far so good, & I shall hope it goes on that way with her.

Rezt & Relax, is definitely not the cheapest in the market neither I can say, the most expensive. But I like them cause their designs are simple & practical (they do impractical designs to cater to your needs of course) and still look good.

This is the end of my House Reno Part 1. Part 2 will be around September (hopefully) when we get our keys.

Till then!

Love,

iNa

Pissed Off with the Banners

**EDIT**

At last I managed to rectify it. Anyways, the next update will be about my upcoming apartment. A visit and discussion with the Interior Designer, Rezt & Relax company. I will be inputting how much are the costs etc.

For now, I am having headache and needing to pee all the time and my baby just keeps kicking.

Till then!

Love,
iNa

As indicated, I have edited my banner images and it's to be transaparent backgrouond but once uploaded on Blogspot, it isn't transparent AT ALL and making my blog looks extremely ugly I am ultimately pissed off! Been having this issue since 6PM!

In the meantime, just read my contents while I google and try to figure this out.

Baby #2!

Yes you read that right!

I am expecting baby number #2! I am currently 28 weeks and 3 days. Before I go on about the baby, I wish to update just a little timeline of my life since my first born.

12.12.2012
- Asheera Rayna Ang was born.
- Breastfeeding stopped on 3rd month as she couldn't latch thus I had to pump and THAT caused the BM to decrease.

March 2013
- Resumed working as a Call Centre Agent in a government sector (sorta) and it was an office hours job. It was stress free for me.

August 2014
- Quit the job and joined a banking company as a Call Centre Agent due to high pay. (In between these timeline, went for short holidays which I will post those events at a later time.)

November 2014
- Found out I was pregnant with baby #2 at 6 weeks gestation.
- Had Hyperemesis Gravidarum for 6 weeks straight and was on hospitalisation leave. It was the worse feeling ever as I didn't experience these when I was pregnant with #1.

April 2015
- Quit my job as due to my pregnancy hormones and I had bouts of health issues contributed by the pregnancy and even depression. I cry frequently, dreamt about work few days straight and pretty much having mental issues due to stress so for the sake of my unborn child, I quit. Budget maybe a bit tight, but it's for a few months till I'm back on my feet again.

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& back to the baby, it's a GIRL again! I really have no issues be it girl or boy seriously but having another girl makes it simpler cause I can save Rayna's stuffs for the second one (but I still bought newborn stuffs for the #2. I just can't help it. Buying baby stuff is always therapeutic for me :P)

With my 1st pregnancy, I did not bother buying maternity clothes as I wasn't out much but somehow, this 2nd pregnancy I love to hang out with my close friends and I have energy (up till 24 weeks that is) to shop and walk (provided by blood pressure does not suddenly plunge down or my nausea or heart palpitations does not act up) so I end up buying several maternity & nursing clothes. Annee Matthews nursing & maternity clothes are really stylish and honestly, they are not THAT expensive.
Spring Maternity's maternity clothes this season is super pretty that I bought so much of it. I even bought clothes from Maternity Exchange as they have a variety of brands selling nice maternity clothes too!

I mostly buy baby items from Mothercare because I am a VIP member there since 2012 and perks will be you can get 10% discount on all regular priced items be it the in house brand or other brands they are carrying. Save a hell lot of moolah for me when I buy in bulk (Which I always do). Furthermore if you purchase $300 & above and wish to spread the cost, you can do so with UOB/DBS card with 0% IPP. Anyhow, Mothercare is having sales of up to 75% discount for their 30th Anniversary! Go crazy mamas!

Alternatively, I frequent shopping online too! Mainly bulky items like baby rocker etc. I'll list down the websites.

Agape Babies
- Mostly bought their California Baby Toiletries as they sell it in bulk and its cheaper! Rayna has very sensitive skin and mild eczema thus she can't bathe in fragrance soaps. California Baby Super Sensitive soaps for the biggest bottle cost like $50-ish each so in bulk of 3s, I get to buy it at $32 each. They do sell other baby items so do check them out.

Pupsik Studio
- Bought countless times from them for their Mini Melissa Shoes for Rayna and many other stuffs too. Very fast & prompt service.
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Ok I am going to end here for the moment and it is a slightly long post than usual with no pictures. I am now revamping the blog and doing all the photoshop-ing to make it look more pleasant to the eyes.

Thank you for your patience!

Love,
iNa

Too Long Hiatus, & Fresh Start!

I apologise for the extremely long hiatus.

Blog under revamp and please await for the upcoming update!

P.S Additional family member!

Love,
iNa

Baby Items UPDATE!

All rightey. The best part of pregnancy, to me, is shopping!

Items that I bought will be of the following:

Yes. The baby cot called Bimbo Bello Crib that cost $400+ inclusive of bedding set & pillows & mattress & the cot can turn into a junior bed as well. Function wise it can turn into a playard & changing table. It is much cheaper than those sold at Mothercare (although Mothercare items are nice looking). 

I admit. These toys are not necessary but I can't help it. I just want to decorate my baby's cot & those mobiles/ toys can be strapped on the stroller & bouncer. Plus it's colourful!

The baby monitor by Motorola may not be necessary but I feel it is for me. I don't live in a bungalow/terrace house mind u but my parents' place is a Jumbo/5-room Executive so my helper's room/kitchen is the furthest from my room. In a way, my helper has to tend to my grandma (yes currently there's like 8 of us under one roof, my parents, my grandma, my 2 siblings, me & hubby & my helper & we literally have 5 bedrooms), & the house chores & my baby girl in time when I start working. My parents are working as well so the baby monitor is a MUST.

That Winnie the Pooh w Tigger is the baby's bedding set & the bouncer. It's actually red in colour. Not planning to open it up yet. Will do after I go for my check up this coming 16th.

For the baby stroller, after much contemplation, I chose the Maclaren Quest Sport 2012 edition. I was comparing it against the Maclaren Techno XT. I compared their weight & how sturdy they are and how they'll last. Personally I would choose the Techno XT for only 1 reason. It's sturdier. But bulkier & 1-2kg more heavier than the Quest Sport. With hubby's busy work schedule, I can imagine myself going out with my baby mostly alone so I might as well get something manageable for petite people. The one I bought cost me $499 but got it at $424.15. Techno XT 2012 costs $568 from the website I bought my Quest sport.

If I am right, Mothercare selling Quest Sport 2011 or earlier versions at $398 & Techno XT not sure which edition at $598. Still, you can compare prices online! 

Here are the websites that I purchased my baby items. Do note that certain items I got at cheaper prices are because I am registered with them.

 1) BabyMeadows

 2) BabyTown

 3) DearBaby

& to compare prices I went to:

Mothercare

As for baby clothes, since babies outgrow their 1st month very fast, I received good quality hand me downs & I receive a lot! Most of the hand me downs are Mothercare items. I received newborn baby bottles gift set and all so that's settled. I received changing table too with a baby bath tub so I purchased most of the baby toiletries. Except linen. Hoping that linens/cloths will be getting by baby gifts and stuff like that so I don't  overspend. 

So to those mothers/mothers-to-be, happy browsing ! 

Love,

iNa

28 Weeks into the pregnancy

Aside from the obvious AWOL,
I am putting some energy now to blog about what has been happening in my life. See, I said energy which meant I can't be exposed too much to the computer and I hate it when I have to stop midway just because I feel dizzy.

This pregnancy taught me that it's hard when you're gonna be a mom-to-be and will be even harder when you are a mom. It's harder for in the meantime because only hubby is working as I resigned the moment I found out I was pregnant. The hours and location isn't what I want when I am having my child. Different moms different views. I believe in spending quality time with family. 

Although I am lucky Ron's pay could pay for baby's, his & my insurance and also all the doctor's appointments, I still have to rely on our parents for everything else. Me & Ron concentrate on whatever concerns the baby & won't accept our parents money for the baby. I am very grateful for their support.  I can't stand being cooped up at home so I can't wait till I get this pregnancy done & over with and get a job.

I am feeling quite nervous now that the due date is near. 22nd December. I just don't what to expect once I'm in labor or something.. 

Did I mention Hershey got jealous when I got pregnant? Well yes she did. She started peeing and poo-ing at all the nonsense areas and her attention seeking mew are increasingly loud and starting to annoy me. I love her too much to ignore sometimes. & I realised sometimes animals are more attracted to someone pregnant. I don't know why. 

I've chosen the hospital I wanna deliver my baby. It's Mt. Alvernia Hospital. Their rates looks affordable and service wise isn't that bad. 

My recent doc appt, my gynae told me that my baby is healthy and the pregnancy is Thank God, doing really well. The only downside is that I only gained 0.8kg from the last 3 weeks. So an estimate my baby is now 1.2kg. Wonder how to get 1.8kg in 2 months. I do eat! Just not a lot. Because I'll feel bloated and that will make me feel nauseated and the last thing I want is to vomit. & if I bloat myself or eat too spicy/oily/too much chocs, I will get heartburn/ gassy. I will start burping for a long time and at the same time feel lethargic. Told my gynae all these and man, the medication that I have to eat is so much! & costly too =X Cause I am currently going to a private gynae & medicines are not subsidised.

Lately to spend my time with hubby when he comes back, we play Diablo III. Yeap. The only game I am willing to play with him aside from that League of Legends game that I totally don't wanna play cause I am such n00b shit in it that playing it demoralizes me! So every night after he comes back home, we will play till 2AM . I know it isn't good for me to stay up late but what can I do when your husband reaches home only by 10.45pm & he needs to eat and relax for awhile and then play & then sleep. I like playing games too and Diablo III is the only game I can play in the meantime without feeling unwell.

There are many things I wish I could do again like eating all the food I want. 
Wearing all the heels and clothes I want.
Going out anywhere to eat & not think if that place is too far for my energy.
Taking the train without feeling lethargic or needing to rely on those priority seats.
Not going for doctor appointments( I hate visiting doctors actually).
Having regular *ahem*sex*ahem*.
Dancing & not minding listening to songs that Ron listens to (lately all the new songs just irritate the shit out of me & I really don't know why. Probably from the psychological effects of when I was in my worse state in my first tri). 
& seriously many more!

I know this is a long post. I have been pretty lonely staying at home for a very long period of time.
I really need to start on that Yoga thing..

P.s I miss my hubby. I miss it when me & hubby were carefree. But u know, I can't wait to see my baby girl. I really wanna bring her into this world & give her our love. I talk to her every day & night to tell her we love her.

8 Weeks :)

After 4 months of tying the knot,
Me is EXPECTING!
Right now is the first trimester & I am quite tired from feeling nauseated most of the time.

Me & Ron are pretty excited but I am worrying about the Down Syndrome test coming up and the blood test.
Yesterday went to the gynae and they were to collect 3 sample of my blood.
The first sample I was already vomiting in which 5 mins later I felt very faint and cold sweats all over. They had to give me glucose to increase my sugar level probably. I sure do not want to do that again :(.

I reside more with my family now because no one is able to take care of me if I'm staying over at Ron's place. All working and stuff. Plus mom's place has a helper so she can cook for me.

I can't stare at the comp screen too long by the way.

Bye!

The days after that....endless

So I am now a married woman/girl. As I believe I have not outgrown my need of being pampered and acting cute with my beloved, I shall put girl.

People said that the first year of marriage is the hardest part because of trying to find the mutual understanding or adjusting to each other. I find it simple. But maybe harder later on when we live alone together.

I am still unsure to have a baby or not but I won't think that far yet.

And lets see what I can talk about.

I am feeling pretty comfortable working at my current workplace mainly because of the people there. They are fun. Friendly. And politics and shits aside, I feel really belong.

Low periods are boring but definitely fun. High peak periods are stressful but definitely fun too!

I really have no idea what else I should blog about aside that:

Confession:

When my work office call my phone, I fear that I might have forgotten my work schedule again!

Love,

iNa

Growing up

So here I am after 5 months of going AWOL.

Yes. The date is set 12 Dec 2011 will be my ROM day.

Preparations are all done.

The only thing is these past few months have been pretty busy for me because I am working and there were lots of appointments. & still have a few to make.

But that's just what I want to update you all on.

This is what I want to actually talk about.
I am working in a hotel line and since this hotel is more like a resort, man. The guests that patronize the place are like... animals.

Guest #1:

"Can I have an early check-in? If possible can I have the highest floor and best view? Can I also have a late check-out?"

Wtf... U have an early check in and u still want a late check out? Then those guests that's coming in after u who wants an early check in? What's gonna happen to them? Faggots.

Guest #2:

I dun mind guest complaining and whatever shits they wanna hurl at me but if u want to actually talk to the manager, ASK for the manager and not complain to me and when I am trying to explain to u, u keep cutting me in even before I can say anything. Another. Freaking. Faggot

Guest #3:

Our extra bed in the room is considered as AN EXTRA BED. There's no additional Roll out bed or whatever fucking nonsense extra extra bed. Don't u understand English?

Guest #4:

Full house situation: "I have 1 room but I may need another one is it possible?" Me replied No because we are full house. "Can we just take one of the room from those who have not check in?"

Man these guests are bloody inconsiderate.

Guest #5:
"We find it ridiculous that u wanna charge us for requesting extra glasses for us to drink blablablablabla when we wanna have a party in a standard room with 15 people in it and we are going to cause a ruckus late at night.. and guess what we did this before and no one told us off!"

Someone. Needs. Manners.

& the list goes on!!!!!!

Personally I don't like to remember these sort of people because they are a total mood demotivator and I can only remember some of them that I find ridiculous. But overall, manageable.

I am going to Good Charlotte concert later in the evening. Hope it's a good one!

Ciao

P.s I hear wedding bells!

Love,

iNa

Love I learnt thus far

I am a 22 year old lady who's getting married in 8 months time.

& this is what I've learnt about love/my man so far.

Common things:

He is a lot more eager to serve you in the 1st year of the rship than in the 4th year of the rship.

He expects you to understand a lot of things by the 3rd year of the rship.

You don't often say I LOVE YOU anymore because its already a mutual understanding by the 4th year.

Small things you disagree with gets very irritating but in order to not fight about it, you have to stop yourself and think that you're not perfect as well.

Uncommon (maybe) things:

He still manage to make me love him no less than I loved him yesterday or 3-4 years ago.

I realised compromise is a very difficult thing to do.

To spend $$ on priorities is slightly hard to manage but gets easier overtime.

I definitely don't find it boring even though i meet him 4 times a week because we sure as hell have activities/discussions to do.

Money issues always make your rship go bleak but knowing you have each other to support and also remind, it makes the bond stronger.

Hard to use a softer tone when i disagree (respect) with him. Still need to learn on that.

I love him. Cause, he's whatever I asked for in love. He isn't perfect. He has flaws that I do not like very much and so do I. But loving him taught me compromise, trust, communication, commitment, responsibility & to appreciate life and the people around you. In all, love, taught me to grow.

Love,

Ina

Onwards to 2011

I have New Year Resolutions. Real ones this time.

1) Never to be late.

2) Reduce getting sick (that includes eating my supplements)

3) Teach Ron how to pray & hopefully convert him by Feb

4) Spend time with my family as it's less than a year :(

Yeap. That's it i guess.

Assignments, Assignments..

This post is.. how stressed and confused am feeling.
Stressed because as usual, I have done tons of research but haven't found the right one yet. Confused because I just have no idea how to do it.

Or maybe its actually straight forward just that am too lazy to think or something.

My degree program is till August next year.
So now's my first term and I only have 3 terms.

I've met nice friends to be with but sadly, they're graduating on my first term as its their last term. Sigh. & my first term it has to be the toughest module.

& again, people keep asking me why I am against my own race. Short & simple, some of them just have issues with themselves(that some is like a majority). & those who are good, they are taken. If there's so many good ones available, I wouldn't resort to choosing a Chinese (:P). But hey, I believe that if its meant to be, its meant to be. So it MAY be that am meant to be with a Chinese (tbh, I liked Chinese boys since I was 12? Although, I still dated Malays of course).

I have no idea what am suppose to be talking about although there are tons and I hate blogging long shits without pictures. So I shall end this one here and hopefully, I won't be lazy to blog as often!

Btw, MY VIDEOS ARE UP!!!

Xoxox

Right here..Right now

That I am supposed to bathe as we have to catch a movie at 5 plus PM.

But my cramps are acting up and I feel lazy.

Pity Ron cause its his off day and now he's spending it sleeping beside me.

Feel really bad.

Had my first presentation(so called) yesterday.

It was to read a paragraph and summarize it.

So I summarized a paragraph that consists a total of six lines/3 sentences.

In a group there's 4 members.

1 paragraph to 1 member.

1 slide to 1 minute.

Since one of them is absent left 3.

3 people total of 2 minutes.

& the lecturer said we are too fast so a danger in lack of content.

What fucking content is there from an average of 8 lines/4-5 sentences?

Stupid-no-bloody-humour lecturer.

Whatever. I think I really need a bath.

What's Love

Can't sleep.

Have been busy.

How do you show that you Need someone?

Or is love needing someone?

Needing the person like food for your body.

Needing the person like the air that we breathe.

Needing the person like how our heart beats for us to be alive.

Why must it be shown Still when you know it all along?

What's wrong with me?

Obsessed? I really think I have issues.

The question is, why would I be insecure when there's nothing to feel

insecure about? Why can't I trust? It's because knowing how it hurts scares me.

Then where's my faith in him? I don't know. I guess knowing he loves me now satisfies me. But when I think of the future, I keep thinking of worse case scenarios, makes me wanna bawl like a baby.

It's weird how love as an emotion, alters one's mindset.

*feels troubled with a lot of things*

What happened in early 2010

Ron finished his NS in September.

Had my internship in April till October.

Lots of credit card debts =P(actually no really).

Was supporting Ron for 2 months cause he finished NS and had to find work.

Had fun during internship.

Bullshitted my Year 2 final year presentation.

Was happy to be out of school for awhile.

Lots of yum yum.

Lots of food.

Now:

Dieting my ass off because am becoming fat.

Yes.

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